One Thing

I got to worship tonight. I'm so grateful for worship - especially the responsibility to lead worship. There is nothing better for a troubled mind and a weak heart. 

I find myself right in the middle of a very strategic attack at the moment. The enemy has inserted the exact things into my life that have the capacity to distract me most, and I am floundering in the cloud of confusion. I wallow in a place of indecision and yearning, and rack my brain to try and boil my life down into the simplest terms. My thoughts race and the path before me becomes blurred so that I do not know the steps I should take. 

But then I open my mouth to pray - to ask the Lord for something. I want to ask Him for only ONE thing, so that He will pull it out of the fog and let all the rest of it dissolve. And when I speak out the words: "The one thing I ask for, LorD..." this always follows:

      "is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,

          delighting in the Lord’s perfections
        and meditating in his Temple."

And then I realize that I have exactly what I long for the most. You, God, are the ONE THING I want most, and I have You forever, as much of You as I could ever want, all the time. And if I never find any more contentment inside this awful cloud, I will still be safe in that place of worship.

    "For He will conceal me there when troubles come;
       He will hide me in his sanctuary.
       He will place me out of reach on a high rock.
    Then I will hold my head high
       above my enemies who surround me."

(Psalm 27)