Friday Night Visions

I saw myself kneeling before the cross. Nothing else was around - it was a barren hilltop, and there was nothing to see if any direction except me and the cross. I was holding a wedding dress in my hands, that signified every dream I've ever had for my life - everything I've ever imagined my life would be like. All my hopes for marriage, children, important work on this earth, healthy relationships, a secure home - EVERYTHING. I leaned forward and took a giant nail and nailed the dress up onto the cross. As soon as i leaned back, that clean, white dress started turning bloody and dirty and gross - like it had been something alive that I just killed, and it was decaying. I was horrified at something that precious to me turning into something so revolting. And then suddenly my viewpoint shifted, and I was looking down at myself and the cross from an aerial view. And I saw the enormous presence of the Lord swoop down and wrap all around me, like a mother would when her child was in great pain. And I realized that although it was God who asked me to sacrifice those dreams and nail them to the cross, He was still very concerned about how hard it was for me, and He was compassionate toward me. His presence brought me to my feet, and started swirling around me, and then I saw that I was wearing a bridal gown made of light. It was so bright and glowing, and beautiful. The dress I had nailed up was so precious to me, and I was broken over seeing it destroyed, but the Lord had a better dress in mind - one that is not even made of earthly substance, and cannot be destroyed or removed from me.